Date:	2007-05-30 18:08
Subject:	BULLSHIT
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	knife fight - crisis

in case any of you jerks are still unaware, there is a new punk record store opening up this weekend called WAR ON MUSIC, located at 333 garry.
we have lots of good shit and theres something for everyone who has any taste at all. come visit me there on saturday, 11-7, thats gonna be my shift from now on but i'll be around alot of other days too. we can party. bring your sweet ass down.

shit fuck your bitch life

erin left today.
now im all alone in this scary world and this shitty apartment.
i guess i have to have friends again. please help.

ps come to the show/party at lipton house this saturday as well as the under pressure/raiden/ramirez/untrained eyes on sunday.

Date:	2007-02-01 01:40
Subject:	motherfuckers
Security:	Public
Mood:	dumb
Music:	nope

theres a free show this saturday. its fuckin free so youll have to come up with a better excuse.
its a party for some ass they call mucho or nacho or somethin...

featuring the talents of...

KURSK (some kinda release)
SEARCH AND DESTROY
NO FUN (new neon blitz band, NB tape release)
BORN BAD (1st show in over a year, still garbage)
and some HOOVER DEATH or something (vaccuum cleaner band

saturday at 7 sharp, bring your kids..
but dont bring that guy we dont like.

oh yeah its at the bike dump, wherever that is. its located somewhere in the occidental hotel building. happy hunting.

Date:	2006-11-01 21:11
Subject:	fuck
Security:	Public
Mood:	garbage
Music:	the ringing that never stops and never will

so i went to toronto for four days. i planned on having a lot of fun and only had a little. i thought it would be good to get to see alot of people i hadnt seen in forever but it was only ok. and i was pretty much in shit mood the whole time for reasons i will not disclose. but i wasnt disappointed by many bands, and it was definately a worthwhile trip. i got tons of comics and alot of cool records.
but im glad to be home where i can do my own shit.

we had a halloween party last night and it was pretty cool but as it went on it bummed me out. this is what happens at parties. this is what happens every day.
fuck. but lots of cool people came out and im glad they did and i hope they had an ok time.
also a lot of shitty people were around who i dislike. i cant understand how some assholes can come into a party and know that everyone who lives there doesnt like them but they try to ignore it and hang around. i dont wanna live in the party house where every douchebag off the street is invited to come get stupid. stay home.

i guess that will suffice for the next few months or so.

Date:	2006-09-27 18:09
Subject:	shit
Security:	Public
Mood:	shackled
Music:	cold sweat - blinded

i went in to the hearing clinic today to get fitted for ear plugs. i need them real bad. i get random pains and ringing whenever i find relative silence, regardless of whether ive had a band practice or been to a show or destroyed my ears anyhow.
so i got a hearing test and discovered my hearing is pretty decent, slitely above average witihin most frequencies but ive done horrible damage, considerable hearing loss, in the frequencies that carry human speech and things like that. as far as i know your ears are one of those functions that can never improve once damaged and i wish someone could tell me otherwise, but i think im still functional enough that im not gonna regret anything and continue to waste my best years making the worst noise.

speaking of noise im working on a band thats kinda powerviolence influenced. the idea is basically stripped down brutal hardcore played really fast ala crossed out and crushing heavy breakdowns, but id say its gonna be more of a hardcore thing then not. but ideas are slowly evolving into more noisy discordant dirges. i dont know who the fucks gonna wanna do this band but well probably need some help. help.
im finally starting practices again today after a month or so of off time. any im pleased to be doing something.

shit

Date:	2006-09-06 22:41
Subject:	yo
Security:	Public
Mood:	shit
Music:	the fix - no idols

i got back from europe a couple weeks ago. so i guess its been a couple months since i wrote on this piece of shit.

europe was amazing, i cant even describe how great it was to be travelling around like that in a band and be treated so well by total strangers... every day. we met so many cool people and i had a hunch before but i think i realized this is what i wanna do, for as long as i possibly can. so its a bum out that not much touring will be happening with under pressure for quite a while. i was hoping once i got back i could take some other bands more seriously and try to do things but its fucking impossible. no one cares.
except in the band where im the fuckup and im the one holding it back. i should be putting more effort into getting better at drums.
hopefully born bad will be recording and putting out a record and touring sometime very soon, but for some reason ive been slacking on that. its hard cus im responsible for pretty much everything in that shitty band. so everythings my fault.

who the fuck would wanna read this?
things have been stagnant and shitty since ive been back. its been cool to see all the people that are important and buddies and whatever but i dont wanna be fucking stuck here if i cant even do anything.

fuck livejournal is so dumb. and so am i.

Date:	2006-07-19 01:51
Subject:	EUROTRIP
Security:	Public
Mood:	sarsed
Music:	music

im going to europe tomorrow morning
and im shitting my pants tonight

pray for me...

the basement show last night was awesome. fuck anyone who tells you different


goodbye

whats up diary

so life is shit as usual.

the end.



ive planned out your week for you.

go to the albert on wednesday and see neon blitz and landshark with american flamewhip. fuck that 1920 shit, or go see steves shitty new band LOST BOYZ then head to the albert.
thursday i forget whats going on but theres something. keep your eyes open.
go to the occidental and see under pressure with ken mode/detentions/perdu and prague on friday. itll be fun??? under pressure will have lps and hopefully come clean cds and you will purchase them or we will die on the side of a highway in belgium or something.
go see outbreak and lewd acts on saturday with some other bands...
sunday go to church and ggo fuck yourself. i think theres some big marielle party but who knows if ill make it to that.
monday we are planning a secret show in our basement! the secret is you dont know where the fuck we live, probably. if youre cool you can find out by asking us, but its gonna be a small thing and its gonna be in and out. no huge party for assholes to ruin our house at. it will probably feature no foolin / search and destryo and neon blitz. maybe more????

fuck HUGHHHH

Date:	2006-06-06 21:04
Subject:	shithouse
Security:	Public
Mood:	barff
Music:	deathreat

so we moved.
i live in a huge crazy house.. again.
and its awesome.
out of the deal where we paid a bunch of money for the people's furniturew and bullshit, i got a stereo, which ive been in need of for years. so thats exciting. but i also found out that the record player i had lined up isnt gonna work, so i have records everywhere and nowhere to play em. this stack of new records is driving me mad whenever i look at them.
but the cool thing about it is that ive got a cd player now, which i havent had in many many years. so i busted out all my cds that mostly havent seen the light of day in years and its cool to listen to alot of the stuff i used to be into and lost sight of, and also alot of stuff ive been into all along. COOL.
now i just need a guitar amp and some drums and ill be the happiest piece of shit alive.

what an exciting entry to an exciting journal.

any assholes who havent checked this house out yet come by and party.
yeah i know how to party.
ive been dying for days and im starting to feel alright.
killll

SHOWS
TRIPPIN. go to minneapolis this weekend and see tragedy with under pressure, high on crime, FJs and four minute warning. its gonna be mentally retarded.

EAT SHIT. go to the mondragon on the 16th???(ithink) and see neon blitz with untrained eyes and kursk (ithink)

UP THE PUNKS... ASS. go to the red road lodge (occidental) on the 19th and see REVENGE from bc and SURRENDER from oakland with UP, search and destroy and no foolin. i think thats that.

FUCK THE KIDS. on the 23rd go to the albert and see detentions, kasper hauser, neon blitz, untrained eyes and possibly some special shit. this show is gonna be wicked.
its weird to be playing bar shows now with this band, cus i kinda swore against doing it in any band ever, but the expiry date has been set so soon that i jsut wanna do as much as possible while we can. i hope none of the younger kids are bummed on that.

Date:	2006-05-28 04:25
Subject:	dis-stress
Security:	Public
Mood:	rancid

im sick of sleeping on the fucking couch.
i cant wait to get out of this shithole and start a new life in another shithole.
when am i supposed to fucking sleep?
im just staying up and listening to verbal abuse, crumbsuckers and iron monkey all night. im trying to kill this rap music kick thats been kicking my ass for a couple weeks now, but if things keep going in that direction ill be listening to fucking manowar or some bullshit tomorrow...
everything is bumming me out and it feels good to be getting back to normal.

erin is telling me about how cheap dental work is in thailand. i should go to some shithole country just to get my teeth fixed. theyre falling apart.
i could probably get some sick rza fronts with fangs and fucking bite you.

i start smoking pcp tomorrow. fuck everybody.

Date:	2006-05-25 22:44
Subject:	yooooooo
Security:	Public
Mood:	harsh
Music:	leak bros - cage & tame one

leanne made a myspace for our newish band. theres some tracks from this show we played a few days ago if you wanna check em out.
http://www.myspace.com/neonblitz
look out for this band to (hopefully) be doin a lot in the next month or so cus after that its over. im going on tour with UP in europe and while were gona pat's leaving. were gonna try to do a tape real quick and play a bunch so check it out, its a fun band.

i had some drama about sick parasitesss eating me to death but thats all over. im sick of people overreacting about it, cus i was freaking out and now that im over it everyones buggggin. heh.
there was one shitty bug and i threw out my whole bed over that, now i gotta sleep on the couch. hopefully when we move next week ill be able to find some better accomodations.

oh yeah were moving next week. to osborne. its gonna be awesome and its gonna suck. were probably gonna have some parties where a bunch of cool dudes come hang out until i want them all dead. so come.
alex has a bunch of free beer for select individuals so the partying will be intense.
maybe ill get in on those and lose the rest of the friends i got barely hangin on.

thing are pretty good, but theyve never been so dull.

Date:	2006-05-22 01:35
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	scared
Music:	cage - hells winter

fuck.
i think i might have bed bugs.
lots of things point in that direction.
im scared and im tripping out. i hope im wrong.
i shouldnt have brought so many dirty people to bed with me.
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
this is just a joke!!
theres some weird girl sleepping on our couch. i hope she gets eaten by shitty parasites.

so the show on friday went pretty alright, as far as i could tell. i couldnt really hear anything but noise. i guess i wasnt loud enough. but that ok cus i played like shit. which is also ok cus it was really fun and im reaally looking forward to playing again.
i guess were kinda on the backburner for a while until the tragedy show and stuff, but thatll give me some time to focus more on other things.
im pretty nervous about playing that show on wednesday with neon blitz, especially now that its a bar show and the drums will all be mic'ed and whatever. fuck... practices have been going pretty good though, aside from me being a wuss and complaining all the time. i feel like im having a real hard time picking things up but when i look at how long ive been trying to play drums and the amount of actual time i get to practice i guess im doing pretty good. come to the collective on wednesday and shit on me please.
hopefully FJs are comin back up here soon as well as some other fun shows. be excited.

who wants to hear about some shitty bands..
but its all i know

oh yeahh and some dude on the street gave me tons of condoms.
so somebody better call me up.

Date:	2006-05-09 04:32
Subject:	holy shit
Security:	Public
Mood:	dumbstruck 4 life
Music:	mc cage - movies for the blind

we got the new house. people are viewing ours tomorrow. we have hours of cleaning to do and no actual time to get it all done.
under pressure practice tonight was awesome. and we partied at johnny g's. watching all the fancypants assholes there bum out as we walked in was gold. the jam room was especially hot today and we were all stinky sweaty messes. it was a good time i guess...

so on the way home me and cam were wandering around wolesley like the usual douchebags and talking about the usual self indulgent douchebag stuff, when we met this psycho cat who followed us for blocks. cam thought it might be the missing cat from the poster so we sought one out and found that this cat was just kinda a pain in the ass and not the missing one after all. after about 20 minutes of walking around it followed us right to my door, and as we sat in the living room douching it up further we could hear its pained meows. this cat was desperate.
and after another 20 minutes or so when cam wanted to leave, we looked down to see the cat looking up at us into the window of the door. were freaking out, cams paranoid and doesnt want to leave. then another cat appears up the walkway between our recycling bins and stares at us. this is getting fucking nuts. a couple mintues later, a third fat bushy cat stands in our walkway between the other two, one right under us on the stoop.
after a while we went to my room to watch them from the window adn they fucked around for another good 5 or 10 minutes getting into little fights about who gets to stand at the door and wait. at one point they were all there right at the door. eventually they go to fuck or fight or whatever in the neighbors bushes and cams makes a break for it..
i bet theyre outside his window now..

CRAZY
goodnight

i havent fucked with this in a while.
heres whats up...
were moving into a new house. in osborne. booo. but itll be alot better in some ways and its huge.
im in under pressure now, and were playing on friday. come. im a little nervous about fucking it up, im not very confident with my abilities, but its the best. hopefully theres a good turnout. come.
im in this other band neon blitz, which is pretty awesome. the songs are real nice. were playing on wednesday with this band fourth rotor from chicago and the other bands all cancelled but im sure others will step up. the thing is, i play drums in this band, and i dont know what the fuck im doing. i have till next wednesday to figure out what the fuck im doing or look like an idiot. come to this show and throw shit at me. actual shit.
im excited about some other shit but also bummed cus nothing ever seems to work out right. or it takes way too long.

today was a good day i got plenty of exercise and perfected my physique. im in tip top shape ladiesss......
we partied all day and took bag and toured the maples and ate punjab sweethouse and played soccer and walked around lots with d pell and walked and jogged around late night with steevee diobutthole.

yet i still feel like ending it all.
goodnight my friends.

Date:	2006-04-09 11:55
Subject:	freezing
Security:	Public
Mood:	fuckin baked
Music:	sick pleasure

i think someones shut off our furnace and it wont go back on
last night i slept in a hoodie
life is miserable shit
i was banned from the sleepover
i tried to go to a show and they cancelled it

im a social insect
infect society
i bug the world they live in
they wanna exterminate ME

im a lwqays wrong about everything



but i ate some delicious tabouli last night


everyone go see under pressure tonight at the new occidental or whatever they call that shithole now. bring your mommys cus youre gonna need em

Date:	2006-04-05 12:14
Subject:	fart
Security:	Public
Mood:	fucking shit
Music:	pedestrians - future shock lp

everyone go see under pressure and ramirez and kursk and fucking whatever on sunday.
it was moved to the new occidental across the street because of some fire department bullshit.
im really excited about this show,and a little sad. its gonna be my last time seeing under pressure. theyve been my favorite local band the entire time theyve existed and even outside of locally theyre one of my favorite bands. its gonna be really strange to see them play for the last timeas a spectator. I HOPE I DONT CRY.
but i guess i cant complain cus playing with them is like a dream come true,to join one of your favorite bands. im pretty excited about all the possibilites and hopefully i dont drag them through the mud. ive never even been on a plane or really gone anywhere cool and im going to fucking europe to tour with a band. this is how i wanna live my life and hopefully it works out well.
its been weird trying to keep all that on the low down for a couple of weeks but i guess everyone already knew anyways. practices are a great time and if i could practice in bands 5 days a week id be a much happier asshole.

bettys in the freezer and it creeps me out.

last night we had a wicked party and no one was invited.

Date:	2006-03-29 00:30
Subject:	fuck
Security:	Public
Mood:	purple
Music:	iron age

what i need right now

iron age lp
huge boobs
ice cream
a couple butts
six dirty dicks in a row